it was an eventful year, hectic yet enjoyable.. filled with success, laughter, dissapointments, and decisions. Here are the top 10 things ive remembered last year and hope things will only gets better in 2011.
1. The success of an Orientation Camp.
Perhaps like what my president said, last year's orientation camp was the hardest to organise given my uni was hosting Youth Olympic Games during the period of time and many things/dates kept changing to accomodate for the olympic games. Nevertheless, i am delighted that ive contributed to the camp as programmer, and Malaysian Student Association (MSA) will always be the one and only Club i will say yes and willing to help deep from my heart, no matter how busy I am in other activities.
2. A failed exchange outcome and a lesson to learn
This time, last year, I would had kept dreaming about an exchange to University of Newcastle, University of Western Australia.. etc.. as long as it's in Western Continent and it's not that expensive as Europe or America. I learned about lifestyle in Australia thru my previous tuition frens and it certainly excited me.
Okay, some may say that Australia is boring, and its hard to travel around unlike Europe. I believe it's quite true. But my main aim was to getaway from this kiasu-and-no-life land and go to places which are relaxing, and Australia certainly meets all my criteria. Not to mention why on earth Chemistry undergraduates requires 4 years of study in Singapore whereas its 3 years in all other countries, and why am I forced to take alot of useless modules and many of us ended up having 6-7 papers per sem whereas my friends having only 3-4 papers averagely in Australia.
Maybe I have not thought so much, maybe if im in Australia i might regret not going Europe instead. But thinking about an extra $4-5K SGD of my parents money wasted just for my small egoness, I would rather spending Aussie dollars than pounds which cause less burden for my family. But oh well, all these plan were sublimed to air when I didnt get the offer due to my result and ive no choice but to stay here and fight for my GPA and go for sumthing else (eg: school election)
3. An exponential drop in results and a wake up call
I enjoyed my year 2 life alot, in fact.. too much -_- My results dropped to drain and I only started to pull up this sem, and it all came from encouragements from frens. Time to wake up and hopefully all the suey-ness are over now. =S
4. Understanding who was important for me all the while.. But I cant give in
I will always remember u said ''For a moment, I really feel like taking a knife and chop you''. It was the first time u used such words and I can just feel u were really angry of me for telling you those things in msn. I regretted till now for having feelings for other girls. It shouldnt had even happen and i will never want it to happen again for life. I hate it when im being labelled as ''easy like other girls'' by you, and I realise that no one.. will never and ever know so many things about me, or neither do I willing to tell them things about me in the future.
Perhaps its this mistake that made me realise that you actually still cared for me? even though how a jerk I am.. from losing contact with you when I first came to Singapore, made empty promises, till finding you only once in a blue moon... I m really sorry for everything, and I really agree why u said ''dont you think its not the right time?'' to me last time. I am not even ready to give in time and effort for this, even in the near future, not at least till im graduated. And im really thankful that you once told me that I am a great guy, even if thats some time ago, and I want to continue be a great person, always dependable and understanding you more.. even if it means challenges because we are distance apart...
5. An increase in popularity in school, but it doesnt mean a thing
I realise that i came across many people whom I dont know, or barely remembers them when i stumble upon them in school. This is wierd especially when I talk to people around me, sumtimes not even knowing their names. Perhaps its because I joined many MSA activities last year, or its the school's election. Honestly, I dont feel comfort when too many people knows me in school, and I would rather have small circle of frens whom I can share, trust and express myself, sumthing like 9th PJ scouts frens in Malaysia, than having a large pool of frens whom barely knows me..
6. Life's tough when you have screwed up presidents
Im no puppet, and I certainly dislike taking orders from you. The school's president once told me, my job here is to get feedbacks from students about what they think about our school, and response to those feedbacks and provide better service to students. What did I do is i wrote a survey to all students. Very well, I expected to recieve feedbacks and suggestions from the pres, and the reply did come fast. We then amend everything according to those suggestions, and it was the entire effort of the whole welfare team, and it was sent during the mid sem break (aka recess week). This time, we were least fortunate. We couldnt get any reply from the president for almost 2 weeks. And after we recieved the reply, he changed everything, as per his wish!!
Whattheheck!? It was his suggestions that we amended accordingly, and it was a collection effort from the entire welfare team. He changed it as though it's his own survey. I talked to him and asked for explanation, he just gave me a fake smile, with sum words persuading me to use his survey instead of ours. Fine, I lazy to argue ady, and from that day onwards.. I started to hate school club, and become reluctant to put in much effort as I will for MSA. The survey was dragged till 3 weeks before exam, instead of after recess week, thanks to the awesomely late reply from the pres and the conflict caused. Thankfully, it was done now.. And I cant wait to end my semester 2 and stepping down.. and leave with points in my hand but not memories...
7. Getting elected means nothing if you cant produce
What does my position do? Many asked the same question after I get it. I told them, well, we get feedbacks from ppl around the school about what they think about school, club, staffs.. etc.. and what do they wish to have in future. The feedback i get is that many students wanted to have their lectures being recorded. Without much thought i talked to the people around the office, and school to ask them about this plan. Unfortunately, the response wasnt that good from Professors and school as many were scared they might say wrong things during lectures, and gave us lots of excuses to disapprove with our proposal. It was still undone till now, and im still trying to persuade.. Partly cause I want things done, and leave this club with people remembering me as sumone who contributed to the school community, not sumone who comes and go.. without bringing any benefits to students..
8. Miss home and Ethan
Love your family, Love your parents, Love Malaysia but hate the politics =P
I believe that home is always the best place to be. I dislike Singapore's hectic life, but I think I will continue working here, due to the currency and travel back to Msia oftenly. I left only 1 year plus to graduation. I believe its not far to think about my future.. and all Ive ever wanted is to be together with family, and in the meantime work hard for a good future. I enjoy my time with parents, and also Ethan ( my naughty nephew..), and these will be my driving determination to go back more often in the near future... :)
9. Im not a good guy as potrayed to others.. and I do have lots of weakness -_-
Some may think I am quite gentlemen, kind, obidient guy.. I am not here to praise myself.. of course not.. Those people who said these things about me are usually frens whom Im not really close.. and usually just went out once or twice with me in the past. True friends knew my behaviour, I am quite easily gets jealous, kiasu, easily angered, emo.. and of course.. money minded. I wonder how many of those whom describe me as the above actually saw me letting go of my tantrums easily. I have friends who understands me well, whom I believe I can freely being myself as long as I am with them.. and im really thankful for having such frens who were understanding enough to me all the while. am i a 2 faced guy? Nah.. I just dont want to spoil the image you potray on me.. perhaps till the day when we became closer frens..
10. Getting a good roommate is important
I had such lousy roommate whom I really felt like writing a complain to the hall office. In the end, it was no use as the hall office didnt even bother my email and I wanted to keep such strategic location and I believe, im not the one who was supposed to be shifted out, but him!! Such 'considerate' of him for not switching off the lights at night, sleeping at earliest 5am plus, always sick, especially near exams, and being extraordinary dirty!! I cant believe i have stayed with him 1 year, and thankfully its all over and my roommate this sem was way better, disciplined and considerate. Not to mention that he brings his gf back room.. just like my year 1 roommate... he is quite a good person and we sumtimes share thoughts on technologies, and he teaches me photographing skills..
now he is off to US for his exchange.. hope everythings good for him! and to all readers, thanks for reading such lenghty post... and Happy New Year !! Best Wishes :)
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